I was going through a stretch of time where I was having trouble trusting that there was a purpose for everything going on around me. I've been going through a work merger for about 8 months (my client's, not my company) and it had really begun to wear on me. This combined with the fact that my loving boyfriend had just moved back to MY home state without me was really starting to get me down. It felt like my dreams were floating further and further away by the day. And then one day, perhaps from desperation, I google image searched the word believe. I desperately needed a visual reminder to do what should come so naturally to me. And I found this picture. Now, it is not the most professional background I've ever seen on a work computer (although neither is a drooling baby, so I'm not exactly concerned about it). I've actually had a coworker mock it in a way, not knowing what it meant to me. But for me, this image has reminded me every day that there is something bigger out there. That these 8-10 (or 12 or 16) hours a day at work are not the most important thing. That when all I can feel around me is despair and fear, that I am safe in the belief that my God is bigger than all of this. That though I may (and will) face many earthly struggles, He is going to be right there with me. That this world is not what I am living for, but for a home I can't quite imagine.
All that believing has helped me lower my stress (somewhat). And now... some of those dreams I have believed in have started coming true. More on that later. But sometimes, all we need is that reminder to believe. To believe in our dreams, to believe in ourselves, but most importantly to believe in a God who loves us and is bigger than all the things we are facing.
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