I'm sitting on my living room floor with the patio door partially open listening to the rain fall on the AC units outside (which almost sounds like a tin roof)... and of course, I have NO motivation to study. I take that back- I do have motivation. Apparently just not enough.
I am not excited about this job hunt that is coming up. I'm EXCITED about a job. I'm EXCITED about moving. Just not excited about finding a job that I can believe in and competing against people who are well... a tad less than honest. The job search thus far has only reminded me how BLESSED I am to have done my undergrad in a place that not only TAUGHT ethics, but really believed in being ethical in business practices. And this whole process is further complicated by the fact that in my heart, I know where I want to be. I just have to trust that God will either change my desires, or He will have a plan to get me to that place.
Looking back on this semester, its also kind of ironic where I am friend-wise. Not where I thought I would be. Not where I thought I wanted to be. But blessed beyond my wildest imagination. And yes, that includes my amazing boyfriend... ;)
This finals season finds me calming down a tad. Learning what REALLY matters at the end of the day. Remembering not only where I came from, but where it is I am going. Remembering that sometimes those leaps of faith are crazy and wild and scary, but that if you are leaping by FAITH, then you are leaping into the arms of a God who is going to catch you.
And now friends... its off to study. But I leave you with this song that I have been playing over and over and over this week...
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