I can't believe it has been a year since we sat in that office giggling over your beautiful birthday cake. And you convinced me that I NEEDED to have that much sugar, and that my boss would not notice I wasn't working. All our big plans and dreams, sitting there giggling in that office. Even then we talked about Vegas... your 21st, my graduation, most of our pledge class and all our friends. KD takes over Vegas. Woulda been a blast, I have no doubt. And yet, less than 8 months after that beautiful afternoon, I laid a white rose on your casket and mourned the loss of a dear friend and sister. I loved that there were white roses, you would have been so proud. And in just a few short hours, we are leaving to skydive for your birthday. I know you will be looking down laughing hysterically as we do it... I know you would have loved to be there to watch everyone's faces in those last moments before they jump. Part of my wants to empty my checking account and jump too... I would so do that for you. The thought terrifies me, but somehow knowing you did it makes it seem totally doable. I will, one day, promise. I am sitting here crying wishing you were here, but they are also happy tears because I know my life has been changed for the better because you were in it. Most days I still think you will walk through that door, probably in something ridiculous like those crazy boots and shorts from Battle of the Bands, and with some huge dramatic sigh you will start telling me about everything going on in your life. Or that I will get some goofy random text from you that will start a random conversation that will go on for days. Actually, you are still in my phone- "Kate the gr8" - haha it really says that babe. Tomorrow is going to be a celebration of your life, and it will be a happy day, because I know one day I will see your beautiful smile once more. Love you hun, AOT forever.
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore
Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun.
Like a stream the meets a boulder halfway through the wood.
Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?
And because I knew you:
Because I knew you:
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.
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