Waking Up

Do you ever have one of those moments where all of the sudden you wake up and realize something that has probably been staring you in the face for a very long time? I had one of those moments last night. It was kinda a huge reality check that I am sitting here doing everything I have ever wanted to do and just letting it pass me by without totally loving every second of it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am pretty sure there is no way I could enjoy every second of learning statistics all day every day, but... I could be enjoying it a lot more. There is a lot that I have been holding on to that is not the best thing for me-- why is it that when we have something thats FABULOUS for us its hard to hang on, but when something is totally unhealthy and hurting us, its near impossible to let go??