Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Getting too comfortable...

Please tell me where in the Bible it says that God calls Christians to find their comfort zone and stay there. No really, I'll wait.

You didn't find it did you? That is because it does not say that!!! Look at Moses- he didn't want to speak, but God told him to do it anyway- He told Moses that He was going to use him despite his weaknesses. Peter didn't want to get out of the boat, but God told him to walk and he did. And there is this chick named Mary and her man Joseph (thanks Jenny!).... I seriously doubt getting married when she was expecting a kid that wasn't his was in their comfort zone. Especially when a guy saying he is an angel shows up and says that this baby is going to be the Messiah!

So why do we look for our comfort zones? Why do we hide, when we know we will be found? (Think Jonah here- getting eaten by a whale is a big wake up call that maybe listening and taking that step out of your comfort zone was a good idea after all!) 

Thats my challenge. To me, to you, to my church right now: hop out of that comfort zone, and find out what amazing things God has in store for you!!

Monday, August 11, 2008

New School Year, New Look!

I decided that since it was time for a new school year, perhaps it was time for a new look around here. There are still a few glitches I need to try and work out, but for the most part the layout is done. :)
The lake this weekend was awesome, learned to drive (and flip!) a jet ski, got lots of interesting looks tubing behind a camo flat bottom fishing boat... It was just a good time hanging out with family and good friends. 

If the next couple of weeks don't start going faster, I swear I'll go nuts. I need school and my never ending pile of homework to keep me distracted!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Some late night thoughts...

Sometimes in life, you have to realize that not everything is perfectly black and white and fits inside a nice, neat box where you can set it on the shelf perfectly categorized. Sometimes, things happen where you have to sit back and go huh, I don't know what the heck to do with this! 
And thats ok. Maybe you choose to react by doing something that you never dreamed you would do. Maybe its even something you have looked at from a distance and said, well I would never make THAT choice... and then you do. 
All you can do is pray. Pray and do what you feel most at peace about. And then trust. Run after that with everything you have, and trust that God is going to either give you peace that you are where you should be, or let you know its time to make another choice. 

Thats where I am. Running with the wind. And ya know what? Its nice out here.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I liked this...

For over 7 years, Regina Brett was a columnist at The Beacon Journal in Akron , Ohio . During that time, she was diagnosed and successfully treated for breast cancer. Regina is now a columnist for The Plain Dealer in Cleveland, Ohio Her column runs on Sunday, Wednesday and Friday.

'To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update: ' 

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. 

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 

5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. 

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it. 

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. 

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. 

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. 

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying. 

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today. 

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write. 

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 

24. The most important sex organ is the brain. 

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. 

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?' 

27. Always choose life. 

28. Forgive everyone, everything. 

29. What other people think of you is none of your business. 

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time. 

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. 

33. Believe in miracles. 

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do. 

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young. 

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable. 

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion. 

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. 

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. 

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. 

45. The best is yet to come. 

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 

48. If you don't ask, you don't get. 

49. Yield. 

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down 
and wiped our tears away, 
stepped in and saved the day. 
But once again, I say amen 
and it's still raining 
as the thunder rolls 
I barely hear You whisper through the rain, 
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls 
I raise my hands and praise 
the God who gives and takes away. 

Chorus: 
And I'll praise you in this storm 
and I will lift my hands 
for You are who You are 
no matter where I am 
and every tear I've cried 
You hold in your hand 
You never left my side 
and though my heart is torn 
I will praise You in this storm 

I remember when I stumbled in the wind 
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again 
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on 
if I can't find You 
and as the thunder rolls 
I barely hear You whisper through the rain 
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls 
I raise my hands and praise 
the God who gives and takes away 

Chorus 

I lift my eyes onto the hills 
where does my help come from? 
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth 
I lift my eyes onto the hills 
where does my help come from? 
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth 

Chorus 

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The words to this song have been playing over and over in my head all day. 
Saying today was a bad day would not really touch the surface.
It is almost laughable actually... because just when I think surely this is it! Something else happens.
But at the end of the day... no matter what else happens in the 8 or so hours before I go to bed tonight... I know a few things will still be true.
I know my God will be holding me when I can't go on.
I know that He will not give me more than I can handle.
I know I have amazing friends... I know that if my best friend could magically leave AZ and be in TX right now, she would be by my side, laughing and trying to steal my favorite blanket while we watch movies.
I know that no matter how bad today is, it is still a gift. It is still a chance to learn, a chance to enhance the lives around me, a chance to be a witness to the power of God.
It is one more day I have to live to the max... every second... even when that means just breaking down and crying over a spilt TV dinner. But its a day to feel and experience and touch and smell. 

A day to remember no matter how hard today is... there are so many people who are so much worse off than I am, and that I am incredibly blessed that my problems are not far worse.


Monday, June 16, 2008

... war was just a game we played when we were kids...

For those of you who have heard this song, you know that taking that line out of context does not do the song justice. But how many Americans feel that war is just a game they played in their backyard with a water gun and their best friend?
This weekend, as I was driving back home, I passed through a small town that could not have had a population of more than a few hundred at most. As I glanced out my window, I noticed a large crowd in a yard. There were dozens of people in lawn chairs and milling around, watching the small country highway anxiously. A large banner in red, white, and blue proudly proclaimed "WELCOME HOME MITCH!", and was surrounded by balloons. There were yellow ribbons on the trees, and food laid out on tables. Someone was coming home from war. I felt my heart swell with pride for this soldier I had never met, and my eyes feel with tears. I prayed for Mitch, and for his friends and family, although I had no idea who they were.
You see, to me war is much more than a game that children play in their backyards. War is the reason that during my freshman year of college I was awakened at 4am with a crying phone call that my friend's brother in law had died. War is the reason that my former room mate has spent most of the last year sleeping in her bed alone, as her husband is deployed. War is the reason that I have learned to write letters and cards, and stuff flat rate boxes with random items.
What will it take for our generation to realize that there are men and women dying every day for their country? And not "old" people... people my age. People younger than me. People who are too young to drink or rent a car, they are over there fighting. Where I come from, most people understand war is real. I come from a patriotic state, where it is very common for a large percentage of a high school graduating class to enlist. My university is also quite aware of the costs of war- there are lamp posts across campus in memory of those students who have lost their lives fighting for our country. I'm not sure if it is possible to graduate from here and not have friends who are Air Force officers, most of whom will eventually end up fighting overseas in some capacity. But so many people have had different backgrounds... they don't really know someone going off to war. Or if they do, its a simple "Be safe buddy, lets grab a drink and catch up when you get back." But sometimes they don't return. And some of us deal with that reality on a regular basis.
The next time you are tempted to blow off something about the war and think it doesn't really affect you... please remember that even though that soldier isn't YOUR brother/son/boyfriend/husband/father... he is somebody's everything.
And please do not ever be like the guy I sat behind at a football game my sophomore year. He was loudly carrying on about the other team during the National Anthem, and I quietly asked him to please stop talking for a moment and show respect for our country and the men and women who protect it. He turned around and loudly told me that he could care less about those people. (My friend, an Army brat, and I had to be held back because we were about 2 seconds from attempting to hurt him... the guy ended up walking out of the game because of the response he got from our group over THAT comment... once the anthem was over of course.) If you are that apathetic, please learn some manners and keep your mouth closed. Or move to another country, I could care less which you choose.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Just a thought...

I was finishing up the Beartrail this morning... hating the fact that at 6:45 in the morning it was already getting nice and toasty, and I happened to look up at the science building. Now, for those of you who don't go to Baylor, this is a quite impressive building... it is actually the largest academic building in North America (SIC 'EM!). But across the left side, next to where I was walking, it proudly proclaims in stone "BY HIM ALL THINGS ARE MADE."
And as David Crowder blared in my ears, it made me stop and think. We do not make things in our own power. We do not do things in our own power. He gives us the strength, the tools, and the knowledge we need to do those things. And He gives us just enough for the task ahead. 
It was a comforting thought... I'm facing some big scary choices, and I know I don't have all the answers. But I know the one who does. And I know He will give me enough to make it through each day in His strength, so that I can look back and say that it was not me who made this work, it was Him.